3rd December
Oh God, What should I do????!!!!! I'm tired, I'm sea sick,I don't want to do this anymore! Character building? All I want to do is go live near Ness and Dave get a car and stay there for awhile.
I was soooo sea sick today! I had breakfast, felt ok,went to work with in half an hour felt sick again and spent the rest of the morning throwing up in the toilet.
I then got a shot from the doctor and I still got the hot and cold shakes and felt extremely tired.
I'm so sad! I feel like a let down, a failure. I know I've been hear for a little over a week but every day I have felt sea sick!!!
God what should I do!?!? Everyone's telling me to stay and that I'll get over it but everyone of them have also said that they haven't been sea sick!!!
I get hot and cold shivers,throw up ,I'm tired and feel sick. What can I do?
The sea wrist bands don't do much, the tablets make me sleep - along with the injection! I don't know! I just feel so stupid if I come back now but all I can stomach is plain rice and a few vegies! Oh God - I don't know. Is the money worth it? I don't think it is. Do I want to travel around the world? No. I don't care for it. I never have. No, I want to leave. What will people think? Do I care? Yeah, I do.
I'm letting myself down more then anything. Everyone is being supportive in what I'm doing - but I need to leave. I can't do this for eight months! I get the hot and cold shivers still even after the injection. The e mails down and it costs US $9 a min to call home and we don't dock for another one and a half days! Dam it!!!
I was soooo sea sick today! I had breakfast, felt ok,went to work with in half an hour felt sick again and spent the rest of the morning throwing up in the toilet.
I then got a shot from the doctor and I still got the hot and cold shakes and felt extremely tired.
I'm so sad! I feel like a let down, a failure. I know I've been hear for a little over a week but every day I have felt sea sick!!!
God what should I do!?!? Everyone's telling me to stay and that I'll get over it but everyone of them have also said that they haven't been sea sick!!!
I get hot and cold shivers,throw up ,I'm tired and feel sick. What can I do?
The sea wrist bands don't do much, the tablets make me sleep - along with the injection! I don't know! I just feel so stupid if I come back now but all I can stomach is plain rice and a few vegies! Oh God - I don't know. Is the money worth it? I don't think it is. Do I want to travel around the world? No. I don't care for it. I never have. No, I want to leave. What will people think? Do I care? Yeah, I do.
I'm letting myself down more then anything. Everyone is being supportive in what I'm doing - but I need to leave. I can't do this for eight months! I get the hot and cold shivers still even after the injection. The e mails down and it costs US $9 a min to call home and we don't dock for another one and a half days! Dam it!!!
posted by kaz at 1:45 AM
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